Maybe it’s Just Me?
Damn you anxiety!
You got me overthinking the most simplest things
Curse these late night thoughts, keeps me from getting no sleep
Folks tell me to keep my head up as if I had a nosebleed
Baritone, kept it Lowkey
Came outta nowhere like a plant sprouted in the desert with no seed
So sweet be braced for the sugar rush
Doubt starting to creep in, wonder if I’m ever good enough?
With the whites I’m too thug
And the blacks I ain’t hood enough
Gave some folks my last, and all they took was my trust
You ever had someone act foul and you wonder how could you do such a thing?
Say that you my dog, but you move like a snake?
I done had 3 family members pass, in literally just this week
Why you worried bout the bullshit
It can’t be just me
Love kills what hate breeds.
But I been questioning the conduct of my city lately.
We been becoming products of gunshots and yellow tape scenes
Mamas tears and rape pleas
20 years to life these brothers facing
And I been a witness to it all Doc, I think I’m actually going crazy
See my twitch?
Yea you a queen but at times you can be a bitch
I know that heartbreak and pain gone need a fix
Like the car makes a funny sound, it be a click
Gotta be legit.
I wonder why I don’t get no love?
Is it cause I’m not shouting Crip, Folk, or Blood?
Posted up with the guns?
Posting drugs, having fun?
Saying some shit I never done?
Whatever I really did, i ain’t finna help the Feds take me to the dump
It can’t be just me?
See I know I’m not the tallest
Nor am I the strongest
Definitely not the cutest
And don’t have the longest....
But I’m wise, I’m intelligent
And hella conscious
Trust my vibes, intuition, and feel the Cosmos
Cause Wanda got me Wishing that Timmy never got Old
But I wonder what would’ve happened if I never got hope
Would I had I stayed the same? Would it really stop growth?
I knew there were bumps in the road but they didn’t mention potholes
Nothing ever goes as planned
That’s how the plot goes
Do they really like me for me?
How could you not know?
Impress yo self, no one else, that’s the new Motto
I spend a whole Lotta
Time up late where I just think
Contemplating life and what to do
Maybe it’s Just me.
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